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i fuckin hate you

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you are so bautiful im glad that the connection im suppose to share is with. God couldnt have given me anyone better. i love you more than you know -soul mate

95% of the pics were us swooning and laughing

going through all the pics i took of us while on skype or facetime and at first i didnt care, but when i saw us both genuinely smiling it made smile instantly. i really do love you

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meditation this beautiful morning with binural vibrations

this bitch niggas name keeps popping up in my dreams. i dont need this shit

trying to be positive when i dont feel at all

yo teacher a bitch too

no one cares what yo bitch think yo pussy feel like

dont want to stop, but ok. whatever you say

let me respond for you so dont have to bother..... "ok" or "mhmm" youre welcome

not everything needs to be justified with one of your conclusions. if i wanted to stop loving you id treat you like everyone else. i said i was joking, not once did i think or feel that my joke implied how i really felt

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i was joking when i said i dont want to love you anymore. but i dont think you care either way. since you get over shit

we all know you get over shit thats why you got over me and picked up two hoes and then talk about them to me

those questions were bound to make me mad. but you wont ask josh because he will get mad, that makes perfect sense

one second means im talking to josh wait your turn my bitch needs me. i now know that

i dont ever want to leave...ever. like i cant be apart from you

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yea but at the end of the day what do i feel? sadness. cuz you over telling your bitch you want to marry him already and shit

yea im talking out my ass right now and im being immature but idgaf

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im about to cuz its only sadness when youre around

cant believe youre going to block my shit just because i said something about your bitch. fuck your relationship

fuck you and fuck him. dont hit me up when you need someone to talk to. i knew your ass didnt care

youre willing to go months without talking because it will make you feel better yet again everything is about you

you know what block me idc. go marry that nigga and stay away from me

your fucking tweets. "now i need to marry you so I can have a german last name" gtfoh josh needs to wake up in space somewhere

souls recognize each other by vibes not appearances

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seeing that pic on your tumblr made me happy because youre happy but it made me sad when i saw who was next to you

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oh yea since you two are together now you wont come to cali anytime soon and when you graduate youll probably stay out there instead of coming like you said you would. whatever i guess

because of the faggot you chose to date. you lost the only person who gets you and knows how to make you the happiest. have fun with his non funny ass and more sensative then bitch self. while im stuck with all these dumb ass hoes

yea you may see this shit and be like chris is just speaking out of anger. i know hes just hurt and loves to the ends of the earth. yea youd be right about all that

and yea i hate your fucking relationship i hate everything about it. and josh is pussy ass bitch who aint shit but thats yo nigga so that perfectly fine. but i wont wish bad on it. I GUESS AS LONG AS YOURE WITH HIM WE WONT TALK? ARE YOU PREPARED TO NOT BE SHIT TO ME FOR A LOOOOOONG TIME?

fucking hate love. clearly this shit aint meant for me. thats fine. no more smiling no more being nice. im a straight asshole from on. THANK YOU VERY FUCKING MUCH

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not just jae. not just tashiie. im talking anyone who left because they couldnt take it. idk what it is but i must be the perfect rebound i help everyone feel happy and get over their problems and then they leave when they feel like it

no one ever wants to stick out shit with me. when shit gets hard yall want to run away from me and be like chris be realistic. naw you just think basic. everyone is selfish and impatient. nobody is shooting with me in the gym. when i get on none of yall ask me for shit

she say she love me whatever that is. do me a favor save that shit

losing all my friends this year. who gives a fuck im tired of loving

you are a work of art worthy of no artist because no artist can sculpt anything like you. sheer perfection. i can only hope to be your michelangelo

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letting our connection flow i simply amazing

that smile and twinkle in your eye as you tell me goodnight

stay by my side as i learn the hard lessons of being a man

as a man its so hard to meet the standards given. im sensative i want to cry and vent just like anyone else. only difference is i get call lightskin and soft for it so i have to front like im emotionless and hard. it becomes perminant after awhile

holding on to my faith with one hand while i feel the gravity of the universe trying to make me let go. i wont I trust God too much and I come too far

all this is just venting i know youll look all this and say im wrong and correct me on it which is fine but this is just how i feel not filter no cover ups just strictly how i feel when i see shit

i also keep thinking about your sex deive wuestion. i know you want to more ingaged with it. but its like now that josh is around I feel you want it to be higher so you guys can have more sex often and what not. i can be off but that what i see it ass

i hate crying i feel weak

i feel like crying right now cuz. like im hurting on the inside but i have to keep a straight face because im the man of the house and i have to he tough

im mentally tired from my everyday life. moms stay pressing me like im doing the best i can shit can i live. i often feel like im about to let everyone down like im not cut out to be successful.

all i see right now is that you guys are in love with each other. just from all the shit you post. i dont believe what you say. you real life love him already and he clearly loves you too. all that im giving it 5 months and hes too nice for me shit is all talk in my eyes you know damn well what it is

i get it he wants to talk to you but you dontbhave to leave me hanging. you stay doing that to me lately. just say you on the phone or you dont feel like talking right now. shits hella rude

it also sucks when were are having a convo and then your parents come in so you have to get off. im waiting for you to call back so we can finish talking and dont hit me back. then when i call its oh im on the phone sorry. like damn nigga can you fucking text me saying that instead of leaving me hanging

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i mean im good throught the day i just needed to vent all the thoughts in my head

when we were on skype in the group chat. it was bf this bf that how josh what are you guys up to. oh youre pranking omg what is he saying. i was like fuck all of yall. im definitely not going to be apart of that anymore. cant stand that bitch

ugh i jate josh so much like i dont even know the kid and his name and face make me want to bash his face in

the one that killed me was that yall look related and knowing you just had to research it and what does it come out to. that you guys' relationship will last twice as long and yall will be happier and all this other gay shit. yet again i sit her like it gets worse everyday

then the ones today are im so lucky to have you. you never annoy me and everything else and in my head im just like whatever she say out loud is different from what shes thinking. cuz one minute hes too nice and the next is that he pretty much perfect. i want him to go away so bad but i sit here and hold it in

i didnt like the second half of my day at all

well i guess you got your wish. you changed him. he knows hes not always right just like you said...

its crazy how how i go from a good ass mood to wanting choke the teacher and bitch ass josh. you all on social media talking about both of them like look at me i have niggas on a leash teacher or bitch. niggas asking you crazy shit like are you smashin the teacher and what your bf. yo shit sound crazy

i see josh and i want to run him and i here about your teacher and i hope he drives off a cliff. everyday i have to hear about the teacher or bitch ass josh like im actually getting upset. fuck both of them. you guys should all go out on a date and they can take turns kissing your ass

so blessed to have known you for a year i can keep going on how much you mean to me and how thankful i am that we met. its only up hill for us jae. my best friend my soulmate my future girlfriend wife and mother of my children. thank you for everything. love you

you are here when im broke and dont have much to offerbyet you love me so much and you want to help me be better and i want to help you be better

we are both going to be successful and i saybthat because i can see you being an actress or a doctor and being really good at it. i can feel it. and the way you say im going to dominate basketball speaks volumes. we are going to he a power couple

it still blows my mind that im blessed to have you in my life. a whole year spent with didnt feel like a year because each day is special with you. i cant wait to spend the rest of my days with you here and eventually youll be by my side all the time

i love you so much Jae and I can not wait until we are together. i know we will be the greatest couple in the near future

its makes me sad because there would be no games i look at you and see everything i want. i wouldnt treat you anyless then an angel. i see only you, but it makes me happy when you you cant have me yet because you know deep down youll have me and ill have you

hope you forever be the reason for this million dollar smile

out of all this pain i still see the faint light in the distance and that makes me stay in faith as bad as i want to drop you so i wont hurt anymore. theres something telling mento hold on. idk what it is but i have to keep holding on.

yet again im left crying myself to sleep and wondering what did do to deserve this. i did all the right things i loved with passion i made you happy and yet just like the others right after my birthrday the person i loved leaves me for another dude. it never fails

im sitting here like im already taking a backseat now i have to just let you go. im tired of you making all the decisions because YOU feel its best i didnt cosign this shit

you want to the best of friends but im getting treated like an inmate with one visit a week. and that one day will probably be short because 1.parents will be in and out 2. josh will be on your dick and want to skype and he comes before me 3. youll cut the convo short

i saw you ask God for help and when i come back from the gym your decision was to cut me off except for one day out the week. like what? because you feel its better because you feel its healthier. yet again you make the decision where i stand even though i mean well now

i cry and i cry because you hurt me so bad. i overthink everything so its hard to feel hatred and feel like i meant nothing. like i was just someone to make you feel good until josh came around. pretty much a hoe who got treated well

these months. i pray and i pray and i pray about our situatuion and seems like im getting no answers but i hold to my faith because i know its not over between us

it never was...i didnt want to here that

not giving up just not dealing with this shit anymore

im beyond hurt. everytime i think im good im not. feels like i keep pouring alcohol on an open wound

like "giselle's smile" taking pics with her and uploading them and reblogging them over and over. constantly bringing her up in all our convos. telling everyone shes the most gorgeous human ive ever seen

i wonder how it would be if i just talked about giselle all the time

"joshua's smile"

why the fuck did i say that. welp there is goes youre definitely having sex with him and as you see i cant with that shit

you look so amazing in that outfit today and i just love the way that ring looks on your ring finger. one day

God is so good to me

i appreciate and love you

you believed in me when everyone was done with me. look at me now that mucher closer to success

gabrielle marie joseph-fields <3

every second im reminded of why i love you so much it so real it scares me because im blessed to have found thenperson i want to spend the rest of my life with

as long as you feel the way i do about us being to gether one day we cant lose. we are the couple that will last through anything because we have been through everything

im going to make it and im taking you with me

god is watching over us. he knows we are going to be together but he is strengthening our bond before he puts us together to take over the world

i love you so so so so so so much

i can wait an eternity for you. mybheart burns with a passion that wont let me stop loving you. i wont feel complete without you by my side

you are so lovely like no will truely understand the beauty that you have until they can see what i see. you are the definition of perfection because youre such a good person

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i miss us so much. i miss checking in with you i miss the way babe flowed off our tongues i miss the way you felt so comfortable when i was around. i miss the real you

when people ask why do i go so hard in everything i do obviously i can say my fam and that it comes naturally. butnjae you are my why. youre the reason i want to be more than who i am you are why i am the man i am today. i love you for that

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your smile melts my heart as i cheese so hard. i can never be in a mad mood with you too long you make me so happy and alive

the way you loook at me and your eyes smile they tell a story about the way your soul dances with mine

yo this infinite deep connection we have for each other is something people dream about and write movies on. think about it jae we have something 99% of people wont have and its not gonna go away

i thought about you tonight when someone asked me what im passionate about. i simply replied that someone ignites the bright fire in my soul

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when you come to Cali im going to hug you for a very long time...dont be mad if i kiss you too

honestly wish i didnt have sex because it didnt do anything i still cant sleep at night and still cry at night sometimes

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i am jim halpert

why cant i just have my baby back?

its like i dont want him tonhave your love i dont want him to have sex with you and i want him to go away. but none of these things are in my favor. so i must work even harder so he can be out the picture

the world could end today and you still couldnt tell me that me and her werent going to get married

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i love you sooooooooo much

you will be my wife idc

the ending to pyramids speaks to my soul

actually no if im not responding youre cut off entirely. if i keep things brief with you then i can only stand to be around you for so long. at this point everyone can go jump off a fucking cliff

can i like live in the gym and not have to deal with anyone. i honestly hate everyone

hes so fucking annoying

whenever she says im going to go do something or sleep when we are on skype or facetime I know its cuz she doesnt want to be around me anymore

last night must have made you one horny fucker now

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and i might have an chance to play on teams where professional scouts will be at

so im going to get paid for my art for a clothing company that works with diamond supply

the things that can happen in one night

day9: JAE <33333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333

i love you more than anything and you know it. youre priceless jae

i can go forever about how inteligent you are or how gorgeous you are or how funny you are or how pure you are or how angelic you are or how hypnotic your beautiful brown eyes are or how gentle your smile is or how real our love is for each other

i just want you to lay on my chest as i play with your hair and lightly sing you to sleep. and before you drift you know your in good hands that in that moment youre the happiest you have ever been. i want to give you the world, my world

theres no doubt that we will spend the rest of our lives together. we are just facing out struggles early on. but i trust our struggle i hope you do to. because we are going to make it jae watch. youre worth praying about everynight and youre worth fighting for everyday

youre my cleopatra and i just want to serve you

i life without you is an empty life. you give my days spark

the day i can touch you i dont plan on letting go. the most perfect person/thing on this planet and you would give your all to me. i just want to spend my life with you giving you everything i can. none of these dudes can do the simple things like i can

that look in your eye when youre just staring at me while i smile at some dumb shit. its like you get lost in me and you dont want to leave. i love when you look into my soul

i could write a lifetimes worth of songs about you and it wouldnt he enough to tell you how much you mean to me

i look at every inch of your body and see not one flaw...nothing. that pimple on your lip doesnt even exist in my eyes. all i see is a pure soul who just wants to love me for me and i want to recipricate that love by 100

you are what God calls perfection to. you were and angel sent to me just for me. i just have to find my way to you

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youre like beautiful majestic island and im the best when im on this island, but im a mess back home

youre my golden girl the sun has been kind to ya. youre 24k and your skys are never grey

sweet dreams love

and when i talk to them i space out and think about you. no keeps my attention, there will never be another jae

no one comes close to you, youre my rib and i mean it every time

it would be cool if the seeds of good deeds i planted here actually made you stay here. i feel like when you come here and we meet up with Jacob he will send you to the right people he was very interested when i said you majornin psych and you wanted to act. he saw how passionate i was about you

honestly i think you would stay in Cali if i took you to northern Cali. i want to take you there i really think youll love it. some thing will remind you of home and some will remind me of home, but having you by my side is home

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sucks im in the same category as jon when all i want to do is keep you forever i wouldnt dare let you go

we talked about the weirdest shit. we do weird shit. we say weird shit. and yet there is no one on this planet who makes me feel more complete and happier than you

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that look in your eyes when you havent seen me in awhile is fucking magical. last night your eyes looked like the ocean at night when the moon shines over it. they twinkled when they saw me. i could just melt looking into them

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yo jae is my fucking rib dude. we can not talk for over a week and she will just talk to me like i never left. i love her and that fierce ass pimple on her lip lol

i sit back and breathe and just think....man im blessed

day8: your faith will be tested. ive been having vivid dreams. i feel satisfaction and a calming gesture when you pop up in my head. something keeps telling me dont worry

got me fucked up. testing my fucking patience. these are the times when I need jae the most. she is the queen who can tame my inner beast. keep me from going hulk and shit. i need to meditate and go to the gym

im over this job yo they really act like they dont know i have other things to do. im done yall can kiss my ass

i swear to bob you disrespect me i dont care where i will let it be known and i will put my hands on you. i dont play that talking out the side of your neck at work or not i will clock yo ass infront of your kid

some people he knows. im going to hoop with him sometime this week maybe we can talk more about it there. but i honestly felt like God put that dude there last night to put things into perspective and keep my faith strong

he also acted for a very longe time did thebtheater stuff and all that. i told him that you are very animated and have a great personality and can do things on the spot as well as being very smart. he was very interested in you. so he said whenever you come down he would like to talk to you and direct you to

hes a designer for shoes and stuff and i showed him my art and he was very impressed and hes going to try and help me out any way he can. i thought he was being fake but talking to this dude for 4 hours let me know that he was genuine

he also said i can tell you speak from the heart when it comes to her you are willing to go above and beyond. i said yea shes my rib and she made me a man. he smiled big and said my brutha you and her WILL be together believe me. i just felt good about everything after that

the topic of love came up and obviously you came up. i just told him we ended up loving each other and how effortless and deep our bond is. he stopped me and said it doesnt matter what struggles you guys go through now just the way you speak about her i already know you will be with her just be patient

greatness in and aroud you. you are blessing to the world. i had to take a step back and i never thought id hear something like that

we talk about our upbringings and he shared a lot of insight on why certain things happen. we also talked about our faith and strong it is in God. he looked me dead in my eyes and and told me you are mature for your age and when you talk it demands my attention. not to gas you but i can see and feel

met this older dude last night and i swear i felt a warm presence when we were talking. we talked about everything but he really liked how good i was at basketball. he kept saying theres no doubt you can go pro

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you know what you deserve to be impatient, but im not going to stop fighting for you. what we have is the realest thing. and we are still getting use to things. just dont get down on yourself for anything because i dont regret falling in love with you, we are meant for each other and i believe that

dont say you will never experience my love up close. you will and when you do im not letting go for anything

i told my mom everything last night and her honest answer was that she sees us being together also she thinks the same way i do. just give it some time everything will workout.

and the word patience was repeated throughout the dream. im being patient. i need you to be patient too. outlr times coming but God wants us to grow a little bit before we come back together

the way things are going we will see each other sooner than you think. please just think positively when it comes to us. i had a dream last night that we touched hands and the planets aligned

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day7: i told my mom about me wanting to be a better person, God, you, life, my goals. i feel like we relly bonded. the way she looks at me now is different, she looks at me like a respectable man

day6: sunrise, laughter, peace, meditation, basketball, sunset

once youve have seen the most beautiful girl its hard to look or think about anyone else. at least i can say i have seen and that i love the most beautiful girl

nathasha is real life comedy the shit you put me through and the nerve to get mad at me for everything is hilarious. i hope this guy doesnt sleep with other girls and beat you...that wasnt sarcasm neither. you honestly pick the worst dudes

meditation keeps me balanced

im so glad im in a better place because im actually laughing at you

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its so predictable now its actually funny. the common line is "idk if im ready. im not sure. im just chillin.." and whatever else and then a monthe later you have a bf. i really feel like you just say it just to say but you know the whole time youre ready

i understand things happen but why even bother saying you are unsure or youre not ready when in reality you do know. dont tell me me anything because obviously you wanted someone to call your own even after telling me you wanted to chill. mind you i dont really want anything i was just going with the flow

so you make a big deal about wanting to be with me and that i should focus on you and when i do you still act like youre not ready for anything so i chill and then we dont talk for a month or so and then all of a sudden you have a bf? interesting. im not mad but this seem to be the theme of 2014

what if i do play professional basketball? ive never pictured myself doing it but i work to hard not to show the world that my name deserves to be mentioned

my co workers and managers think im the sweetest person, and they always tell me that my smile has a warm passion that makes them feel better. i think im an asshole but the fact that people think im a very sweet person kind of makes me emotional and idk why

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this kid said his cousin plays over seas and after seeing me play he and the gym agreed that i could without a doubt play professional basketball. my hard work is paying off

almost a year ago. i was a boy. i wasnt the athlete i am now. was still very shy. now i constantly get asked why im not playing professionally or in a school. people see the growth that i started just a year ago

day5: i feel as if nothing is real. like at any moment things are going to change. i miss you Jae, im stuck somewhere between missing you and loving you from a distance. i hope you are ok. i still can hear your giggling at night. but today i am the master of my abilities

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falling in love with you was a blessing

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day4: i was sad yesterday while at work because of the weather but i missed you the most. today is bright meditation keeps me focused and i have a workout with my coach tonight. im blessed, and im pretty happy. i cant wait to go back to bay to see my fam. can't wiat to sleep so maybe i can see your face

day 3: standing up to what upsets me.trying to accept that God wan'ts me to better myself before I can be put back in certain peoples lives. im kind of in a good head space. i feel good. meditated and i can feel my emotions leave me no feeling except for a calming feeling

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day 2: im sorry to those I hurt with my misguided emotions. for I have good intent but....to jae the person i truely do care about the most im sorry i have trouble accepting our reality. im trying to better myself before im come back. smh sorry about everyting really idk why i am a cunt to you. love you

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21 day challenge. i think ill be a better person after. i also think we will be on good terms after

its so humbling talking to God. my faith feels brighter today

a lot of time to think

you are a real woman who spoke to the man in me

why am i just realising i was pushing my bad habit on her? i push everyone away. i cant let you of all people go...you know me the best

why am i pushing someone who helped build me away? why would i want her out of my life? am i really that crazy?

im doing it again. im doing exactly what i told myself to stop doing many times. im deliberately forcing you to hate me so you push me away. that might have been ok with others but how can i do that to you? i need to think. am i that blinded by my own anger?

yea in my head im like come on chris dont say anything about the relationship. trust me i dont want to wish anything bad. its more my high dislike for him. but its turning into me wishing bad on you guys and im sorry for that

you think i dont care about you? and that i never did? youre trippin.

i said what i was feeling at the time. most of it was out of anger some was how i was really thinking if that makes me a pussy and a sensative bitch. i think we all fit that category

i would be delighted to punch a wall

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ok im a pussy and a sensative bitch becasue i dont want to be around you and someone i dont like

you guys watch misfits also? hmm interesting watching the show we use to go crazy for. sure let me take what me and chris use to do and let dry ass bitch boy enjoy it too

i hope his non funny ass reminds you of how much i made you laugh

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what kind of love dont make you old?

what kind of love would take this long?

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what kind of love dont die alone?

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what kind of love just stays the same?

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the days when you leave its kind of hard to breathe

everytime i see that mouse face of his i cringe in disgust. like a kind of have crazy thoughts when it comes to him. like what i pretend to be cool with him and just choke him when he isnt looking...among other ideas i wont mention

i felt like i was out of rhythem like im sad and non emotional for 10 days and then you are here and im happy beyond reason and like that you are gone and im back to feeling nothing. surpressed memories and emotions

i was so happy. i though maybe i actually might spend a day with you. but no, dumb fuck always has to have the weekends off. for someone with three jobs he automatically has all this time on the weekends.

i felt joy knowing hes not funny. like how awkward is it to just be dry all the time

i felt joy hearing aaliyah call stupid head christopher. its like im a ghost or a constant reminder at least in my head that he doesnt belong there

i felt utter joy and happiness like all the pain i felt suddenly didnt exist as if i was forcing myself to feel pain...but then reality hit and its back to how it use to be. alone.

those times when you feel nothing but happiness, like thats the only emotion you can feel and just like that its gone

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it was fun while it lasted. back to reality

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i saw you text me and i literally couldn't move my fingers to text back. so i come here where my internal can flourish. smh wtf is wrong with me

everyday is something different but it feels so routine. there is no more spark in my days since...well you know...you're not around

i was really excited to call but then im glad there was no answer

i think im scared to talk you

i just want to live forever and ever, maybe this is the last night

ill be right by your side until 3005 hol up

i hope that you remember me

if we should die we will all die together raise your glasses one last time

this is the land of fire and we shall all burn together. with the flames burning along the mountain side

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having a job is making me a man about life in general

my coworker asked me where my heart isand i said new york with a crooked smile

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nathasha gone text me and say "i miss you" i said "whos this?" i forgot i deleted her number *kanye shrug*

she wakes me up every morning and she calls before i sleep. i dont want anything but shit she taking me to disneyland and the beach

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two cute girls at my job and they both like me uugghhh im too awkward for this shit

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nothing even matters at all

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if its fuck you i meant it if its i love you i meant it

no feelings lack of remorce lack of compassion

im going to make everyone regret not staying down for me. im going to make yall wish yall never met me

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God is testing my faith again

the break up song by wale is everything

if i come to new york his weakness will be my fist breaking his jaw and also that he will never know you like i know you or make you happy like i did or explore your mind like i did and HE WILL NEVER LOVE LIKE I WILL AND CAN

how do you deal with someone like josh. hes up the girls ass all the time doing everything to win that perfect botfriend award. he doesnt makes you upset hes not going to force your hand. how can i even picture us in the future when hes going to be there

this new girl is chill af but we both agree i could never give my all because a certain somone holds that spot. the way you and josh are going that spot is going to hurt for years

literally everytime i get attached and feel i get screwed over by the girl picking another dude over me when i didnt do anything wrong. maybe im the bitch maybe i should start dogging females and acting like they aint shit i mean they proved it so far

i feel like i was in a vivid dream and i can feel actual pain from the dream.

you want to show him how a relationship is supossed to be. thats nice youre doing charity work now. when will i realize ive just been floating around in a wonderland all these months

so what have we learned kids? even when its yours its temporary and if you have misplaced anger and feelings like i do you wont let go so easily

i find it funny that when i see pics of you guys kissing i see him more into than you are. when he holds you he looks awkward. everything looks off bakanced

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i find it funny how he has to be the lamest dude on earth and still manages to be fitting to live up your ass

i find it funny a punk bitch named josh can just be at the right place at the right time and be your girlfriend so quick

i find it funny being in love and having a deep connection doesnt mean that person will stay

i find it funny i opened up like i never have before i also find it funny ive experienced the deepest part of love and i couldnt have it

i bet this nigga gone cry the day you dont show him enough attention. why do i hate him so much? who knows who cares its a good way for me to vent

be happy? fuck that survive my nigga. the one close to you will show you false happiness

its getting easier to stay away from what hurts me

work fuck workout fuck some more hw and forget about how i opened up just to be heart broken. i think my adult hood is on the right track

convincing yourself that you hate someone so you no longer feel and emotion for that person isnt so bad

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finally told my ex why we had to seperate and i realized how stupid i was. hmmm makes me wonder about about the situation now

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idk why i still look at josh's tweets they are gay as fuck

and stop calling idk you like that

bitch shut up no one cares.

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worst feeling when your love takes a backseat to a new bitch that aint shit

smh i cant stand thinking about you anymore i want to go back to the Bay the one place you dont exist

i love you jae more than any of these niggas ever could

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and we will still be together i just have some shit to do in the mean time

when youre kissing him i hope i pop up in your head. when you hold hands i hope you think its mine. when he does shit for you i hope of all the times i made you the happiest girl in the world. i hope whenever youre around him your heart tells chris is supposed to here not him. but one of these we will talk again

this isnt me judging or trying to come at you. thisbis how i feel and what i have seen. i cant compete with josh my love wasnt enough for you to say its too real for me to just go find someone else ok fine. josh replaced me and thats that i dont compare but

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i cant help the way i feel you say one thing but then its another the next day which is fine but you cant have him love and me loveyou. cant have your cake and eat it too. you lost me when you found him. you want to be selfish with me and shit but you made your choice

you say youre not obssessed with him or you may not love him but i think you do. i just dont think you want anyone to know. hes was nice and clingy so you made him your bf. you were sure but then "rolled with the punches" so you know youre in deep you just dont want anyone to know

josh is better than me and thats it. i cant compete with him at all. so he can watch movies with you on skype loke we do. he can make you laugh like we do. he can do everything i did and more thats fine

to something i fought for but just wasnt going to happen for me at the moment. yea i still want to be around and yea i still see being together but josh is her now and you can do all the things with me and donit to him. he can be "me" because i no longer exist

i read your post about how excited you are to see josh and that you want this amazing relationship with him and i just thought you guys are going to be together forever and theres no room for me in forever. hes sensative and loves being up your ass you like doing that too so its a wrap im kind of over holding on

if you see this its because i couldnt tell you to your face. im not coming home sunday. ill be gone much much longer than thatanted to see your face one last time for awhile.

hes really here...like im going to see his face for a long time. i hate him so much. if i could just fight him one good time.

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i cant stand to be away from you. if i have to keep removing myself and coming back to get through this i will. but i wish i could see that same twinkle in your eye when i smile at you

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just the simple thought that his sensative ass isnt going to do anything sus or hurt you makes it harder to think hes going to be around forever. that shit kills me inside

im so selfish i want you to myself. its like i want you to tell me you and him are just for the public

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just cuz we fucked doesnt mean you can start acting crazy like you run shit. you mean nothing to me until proven otherwise

its 4 in the morning and he cant sleep so he writes something sweet. he gets thank you baby. its 2 in the morining and i want to write a whole book on everything you do that makes me happy but i cant :/

it hurts me to see you happy with someone else

where is my humanity off switch?

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i always think youre talking to him. i feel like he runs shit now. i feel like youre obsessed with him. im going back to thinking why am i still around i dont fit in. but in reality thats probably the furthest thing from the truth

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everything i do i just feel like im being a crazy person. my mind has all these thoughts and shit like why am im still going crazy. its like i want to be here so why am i going crazy over it?

God i know things are difficult at time but thank you for allowing me to get through it

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i get so confused sometimes like one thing was said today but yesterday it was a different story :/

"perfect ass boyfriend" so it really is true

i said something i shouldnt have. its not your fault yet again letting my asshole tendencies to prevail

fuck that im staying right here aint no bitch about to take anything away from me. i swear to bob i would tell this nigga straight up what the deal was if i could meet him. he could fight me if want to get mad but i think josh is a straight out pussy

so im supossed to lose you because i care too much. and i care so much i rather take myself out of your life so i dont hurts you? why do i always have to lose someone i love to someone who just comes around. why am i always putting myself out there for the people i love to just become distant?

this shit is beyond stupid running around in circles because of one bitch nigga. he always works? bullshit that nigga took a week off for you. confused? you knew you were going to keep him idk why you were frontin. shit is stupid cuz

you lost me when you found him. but i made the decision easier for you

tired of leaving you but im tired of hurting you as well

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never believe the shit they say...never

theres always time for him no exception

wish i could be him right now just to experience you everyday